Day 48: Are They Okay? April 15, 1862

Days and days have gone by, I have been waiting so impatiently to receive any news about the boys. So many thoughts are going through my head, are they okay? Did they fight in the battle? Was anyone hurt? Momma is tryin to calm me down, but I dont know why she aint freakn out either like me. Yet, Momma has always been a calm women and kept her thoughts to herself event though she will speak her mind when it comes to it. I need a letter, I need a reassurance to know that they are ok and that I can breathe. Its been days and days! Hour by hour! I need to see someone, A General to bring bad news, or Mike to knows that a letter has arrived. The line has been drawn, I cant stand this tension anymore, I cant stand waiting here any longer to see my brothers. I hope they know that I love them and care about them and that right now my whole world revolves around them.

I dont want to say any more goodbyes.

~Beth